The Gordian Knot of Stubbornness: A Personal Struggle and Reflection

Introduction

As I reflect on my life, I realize that the greatest flaw in my approach to life is undoubtedly my stubborn streak. This unyielding resilience, akin to the unbreakable blast doors in a bank vault, is both a blessing and a curse. It compels me to stand firm on my convictions, no matter how much evidence contradicts them. This article delves into the origins and impact of my stubbornness, particularly in the context of my professional journey in medicine and the profound effect it has had on my relationships.

My Unyielding Will

I am a stubborn person, to the extreme. My will is unbreakable, and I am infamous for my tenacity. I pick my battles and fight them fiercely, holding my ground even when I know I am wrong. My stubbornness is not merely a character trait; it is a defensive mechanism, a strategic approach to keep my pride intact, and, ultimately, to disrupt my opponents. Despite the obvious contradictions to my beliefs, I continue to adhere to them, often for the sole purpose of getting under someone's skin, just to prove a point.

Yet, there is a glimmer of hope. While I am slightly better now that I am aware of my tendency, that stubborn streak remains a part of me. It is a complex and multifaceted trait that is both a strength and a weakness. I must address this flaw in order to grow and improve, but I must also learn to balance it to make my life and the lives of those around me better.

Professional Success and Family Disbelief

My professional success in the field of medicine is a testament to my resilience and tenacity. I have devoted countless years to learning and honing my skills, and I have successfully treated hundreds of patients. Yet, despite my successes and the gratitude and satisfaction of my patients, my own family does not always believe in my prescriptive abilities. This is a cruel paradox that deeply wounds me. While strangers and friends trust my professional opinion wholeheartedly, my own family members often seek alternative opinions from other physicians, even when my prescriptions are correct and effective.

Each time my own family members lie to me about consulting another physician, it hurts. It is not just the act of lying, but the repeated betrayal of trust that wounds me most deeply. It is as if they do not value my hard-earned expertise and years of experience, even if they rely on it in times of need. This feeling of being untrusted and unsupported, especially by those closest to me, has caused significant emotional distress. I have come to realize that some of my family members only care about maintaining their societal status, rather than truly supporting my success.

Strangers vs. Family and Social Expectations

Despite the adverse impact on my relationships, the patients who come to me for treatment despite my family's doubts are what truly inspire me. They may be strangers, but their faith and gratitude provide me with the motivation to continue fighting for my beliefs. As they are healed, they often express their appreciation, which reaffirms my belief in the value of my work. This warmth and gratitude from strangers often leaves me with a sense of fulfillment that my own family sometimes lacks.

Their support reminds me of the true value of my work and the impact I can have on others' lives. I am grateful for the strangers whose belief in my abilities helps me stay motivated and focused, even in the face of adversity. However, I also feel alone, as if my family does not support or trust me, even after my success. This realization has made me appreciate my patients even more, as they consistently show their support and gratitude.

Conclusion

Reflecting on my journey, I understand that my stubbornness is both a strength and a flaw. While it has fueled my success, it has also created rifts in my relationships with my family. I must find a balance between holding firm in my beliefs and being open to feedback and change. Only in this way can I continue growing and moving forward in both my personal and professional life.

If you are struggling with similar issues, I invite you to explore your own flaws and strengths. Understanding and working on these aspects can lead to personal growth and the strengthening of your relationships.